This would be one of the saddest day in my life. My eldest child (dog) just passed away around 6am May 23, 2012. My mother, father and brother cried too because we all love him. I have been crying since this morning until now. He is not a dog for us, he is a family member. All of them are part of the family and not just a dog. 

He’s like my son, I am willing to lose my stuffs but not GEO nor Sachi & Uno & so much more not anyone from my family. We prayed so much that God will give him strength to overcome the virus and become healthy again so he can grow old with us.

I did everything to make him live longer even though I don’t have money right now. I borrowed money to give a very expensive treatment a try though there was really no assurance it will extend his life. His illness has really no cure but just treatments that will help his body fight the virus until it will be lessen & can be manageable.

The virus is called “Canine Viral Distemper”. To those who have pets please research & read about DISTEMPER. I think this is the worst virus your pet can ever have. It’s incurable and very deadly.

I just can’t accept how it killed my baby in just few days. I can still remember how strong and active he was before that stupid virus infected him. I don’t know how long I’ll be sad losing my baby GEO and when I can be focus again. I can’t help myself reminisce the 1st day I held him, our 1st bonding, the times we brought him to different places, our tambay days in SM North, the times he relieves my stress and pain, and so much more. Now there would be no GEO to welcome me everytime I arrived home. :’(

GEO is a loner dog but he’s sweet in his own ways. I would never ever forget my baby GEO. I still wish he can live again. Actually, I wanted to have another dog with the same looks & color like GEO and I will give him the same name. Maybe by that I would have lesser pain.

Though it hurts too much that God take him away from us and our prayers weren’t heard I still thank God for giving GEO to us and for giving us people that helped us, lent us money & understands the situation. I believe that GEO taught me something so I can be knowledgeable and apply what I have learned to my other dogs. To my dearest GEO you will always stay loved and remembered. Thank you for the fun memories. We love you baby GEO.

Okay this might seem late, but let me just share with you guys my holy week long vacation experience.

Many might have spent their vacation in their provinces, in the beaches, in the parks or in other places to enjoy the long vacation. But me, well, I spent my vacation in silence for 4 days from Thursday up to Sunday I stayed at home. YES! At home..

I wanted to go to other places too but I chose to stay at home instead because no one will look after my lovable dogs while my father was in Bicol. I can’t let them be alone in our house since my mother & brother often goes out.

Good thing my two cousins arrived to spent holy week with us and my brother just stayed at home as well. We just ate, watched movies & played some games so at least I had few people with me.  The time seemed to pass by very fast that I did not even notice that I have kept myself not to leave, but in my mind I was really thinking of places that I could visit.

And sooo, I failed to conquer the urge of going out! Grrrr… I really wanted to go somewhere before I go back to work, so Monday I decided to go in Bulacan. (In my jowa’s place) Their place is province like with many trees, farms, animals, river, nice views and a dam. Yeah there’s a dam but it is not being used for supplying water anymore. The other side of the dam has shallow water that you can walk around the place.

The dam has sharp stones and grasses; it looks very nature with all the trees, bamboos, animals, etc. around. Some kids are playing & swimming there too.

I saw unfamiliar birds with yellow, blue & green colors, and a kingfisher (I am not so sure if it was a king fisher but we saw it catch fish so quick from the dam) but unfortunately I wasn’t able to take picture of those birds. However, I was still lucky that I have taken this picture of a dragonfly. I don’t know if you guys have seen this kind of dragonfly with red color, as in almost everything is red.

I was so amazed with it because it was my first time to see a RED dragonfly. I usually see the brown big dragonflies, the blue & yellow small dragonflies but not like this, so I asked them to catch one therefore I could look at it closely. It seems like an evil dragonfly! Hahaha..! Good thing is they don’t bite!

Okay, that’s it with the dragonflies.. Following the dam visit we drop by at the bridge. I find it a good view to take some pictures and so we did.

 After my “photoshoot” on the bridge (hahah! Photoshoot talaga? Feelingera mode..) we decided to go to the long stairs going towards a small altar at the top of a hill like. From there you can see the overlooking of the small town and the mini rice terraces.

You can also see the mountain. (I don’t know if that mountain has a name.) I can say that it’s a nice place to stay if you want to relax for a little while because of the view plus the fresh cold air. 

 I tried to spend every minute to enjoy my half a day vacation out of the 5 days. So after going down from the hill like top I decided to check out closely the rice terraces. When we got near the farm there were many white birds. Maybe they came from another country & it’s their month of migration.

I so wanted to go in the middle of the farm & under the big tree but it’s a private property and so I couldn’t do so.  All I can just do was to take pictures.

Last stop?  jowa’s house. After my super fast tour, we went back to their house. We had lunch, rest a while, packed my stuffs and went back home. I may not have spent my 5 days vacation out somewhere far but I don’t regret because at least I gave myself a time to relax with my precious pets, family & love ones. :)

MAG cover wanna be..

This photo was crafted by my BFF (Best Friend Forever). He made me this because I was looking at some celebrity photos in the net and getting a little envious on how good they were in the magazines and I told him about it. Then the next day he tagged me this photo and I find it really nice. (That’s my own opinion.. hahaha!)

Okay, Let me tell you a little story of regret.. ;) When I was a child I was often invited to join tv search programs like “Little Ms. Philippines” and other talent contests but I always refuse because I am a shy type girl. It never got in to me to join those kinds until when I grew up as a teenager. Now, how I wish that I grabbed the opportunities and just tried.

Well, it’s not that I am sure of myself being famous if I did joined those search but maybe I may have the chance of exposing myself to such kind of events and maybe, just MAYBE a door will open.

My point here is that we should give importance to every opportunity. We have to analyze it first and decide carefully so that we will not regret anything about it. Oh well, things happen unexpectedly so who knows there still a possibility for me..! LOL! :P

Another point here is just keep on dreaming & believing!

I was alone here in our pad, watching tv inside my room while thinking of what would be the topic of my very first blog. Since it was just around 7pm and my tv signal wasn’t good I didn’t have any choice but to watch Tv Patrol. One of their topic was about “Dennis Roldan” (you guys might have watched it also, but let me remind you again who he is. ü)

Dennis Roldan was an actor from the 70’s, he is a good looking  man with a good body built who often portrays villain roles in action movies and other genres. He also became a politician as a congressman in Quezon City. It was year 2005 when he surprised the people when he was caught for a kidnapping crime and was jailed.

Okay if you still can’t figure out… Just look at his photo below!

From the news report Dennis Roldan said that he never felt angry when he was jailed and did not feel any regrets spending some of his life inside the jail because from there he had the chance to meet his creator.  Now, he is a PASTOR who spread the word of God, shares it to many, as well as a living proof that GOD never leaves us and will move in his own ways.

Pastor Dennis Roldan’s life was totally renewed, his family issues were fixed. He said that his property which he turned into a church was once a cabarette with stripping dancing women, a gambling place but now a house of worship.

I felt something while watching the news, my eyes started to get a little teary and I felt his story. I can’t even explain where my emotions were coming from. It’s really amazing how God changed his life from being a person of sin into his disciple. Maybe I felt guilty of all the things I’ve done wrong, for the times that I excused myself to come along in our church activities, for all my lack in serving him and others.

Yes I am a Christian, I was raised as Born Again Christian but I know I am not good enough as how my fellow churchmates are. There are times that I tend to say bad words like the P-I, T-I, etc. when I get so mad. Well, I am trying to avoid it!

Though I made mistakes and don’t go to church regularly on Sundays I still have my own personal relationship with our GOD. I talk to him to share my thoughts, my concerns, worries, give thanks to him and many more. I often ask him to make me a person that he wants me to be, but one thing I am confused of is that would it be in his own time that he will make me do his will or I shall make my moves and do his will?

I believe that it is more important that we don’t forget about our God and that a person shall maintain their own relationship with him. Yeah, yeah you go to church regularly and you attend all church activities but then you don’t really follow his commands and act like you’re not one at times. I think that is more shameful right?

Alright, this seems to be getting longer. Well, I just shared to you guys of what I felt with Pastor Roldan’s story on How God made his moves to make someone’s life go in the right trail.

We all have our difficulties in life but we should not take unrightful things to forget about it for a moment, instead let’s go for long term by asking God’s guidance.

All I have said here are my own perception & I fully understand that I am not the perfect person to give you guys a sermon. (Well, this isn’t one..!) Hope you enjoyed reading and was also touched.. :)